I’ve already scoured them and she always looks like an angel .. But in the “T-Rex” get up? That’s who I want to marry! That’s my gf. That’s the girl who will tug on my arm! She’s the one who – in my dream last night asked “WTF Jon?” as she finally got to me. I love you – Sunshine! F O R E V E R!!!!

…. Can you even come?…Nothing is going to offend me… I mean I may… but if I get my date? I’ll understand any legal BS….. of course I’m offended.. but I guess I’ll have to prove my value to you… and if I get my date? So
Be it… I’ll hide! … if that’s what you need… I’ll sign anything blindly… trusting you.. who I think was my good friend once… I don’t think my friend is out to hurt me… but whatever you DO do? Know that I love you.. am loving you… not a single date in 6 years… lots of opportunities… but …. I want this to be real… I love you.. you know my number… and I’m here in my SF… No one will brother you here… no one!

What do you regret?.. I think you’re gonna regret not coming to me… while I’m here… if you go on a date? I’m going to go on dates… I don’t understand this anymore.. you’re a half hour drive away… for weeks now…. I get left so these two idiots may have a social life… I look stupid… waiting for … idk… I hope you don’t regret being my friend… as if you’re saying that? Peace… I don’t know what to expect… my phone is off now… no gigs… a complete sham here… the only fun I have? Dreaming of our life together… which you must have real reservations about… and that sucks for me.. I’m just duping you all in that way.. when I say “I don’t want to hurt your career?” I’m seeing if you’re actually that brainwashed… I make careers… I legitmitize my friends … who usually see themselves as great somehow… and forget all about me… I’m here in Venice… I belong here of course… came from here once to SF.. I’m probably going to stay here… I think love is the most important thing in life… and I know I love you.. rtfn.. and you will know… at some point … that I fell in a deep with you.. from the start…. why I always wrote “MySweetSunshine” in my status everyday… and put Mandy’s pic as my #1… all my friends will someday tell the world that “He went crazy over “Mandy”…and we had never seen him in “love” like that… he was afraid to call her! And he drove everyone crazy… saying he thought he found his “future”… his partner who might understand his being an artist… being involved in modeling and dancing..” and I got got hard in the heart… I cried when “Mandy disappeared” … saying “F that lil girl then!” But I thought… you might see that I … me moon was “famous” …. a performer … and you’d contact me… that was my plan… I set up the political stage that was supposed to allow me to regain my fame and nationally… they’ve done near ZERO to stop an overthrow… you are now caught up in history… whetheryou know or not… aand I’ve never lost… did youeven wonder about how… after iI told my own son? He still thinks I’m crazy… No one would listen when I started saying “The girl I thought? Is a different girl.. and its that Miley Cyrus?” “Right… got any more weed?”…So I hold it in. They think I’m secretly “gay” as Idon’t want a gf as long as I think we may have a shot… and its all really hurting me…. I guess now… you’ll explain to me why you’re not even contacting me… now … after I’m here to work… and being shut out… and it looks like you may give a crap… who cares … right… this was all “in my head!” … I’m “crazy” after all .. to make all I complain about… seem like “conspiracy theory madness”… and that’s the plan of course … listen… ACT or don’t… but at least think of how this is effecting me.. please? I’m here … can’t really go anywhere.. no date… no dough for a date.. unless I can just hang out with you … somewhere.. even if in secret… unless you think that I don’t love you really … for some reason…and if so? This must end.. and you get on and I’ll get on… no worries whatsoever… just a giant part of my heart and soul and my life… so come or call Greg or don’t … but make it clear for me.. if I had another head? A partner? I’d be way better off.. I love you..

Well…. I’m out of herbz… so maybe you come by and pick me up and you smoke me out… I’m on Abbot Kinney …near Washington in Steal Yer Spacemobile…alone.. so someone may come by and knock and fill me in… maybe You or maybe a friend who can help us elope on A secret date… to do and go anywhere you want… no strings attached.. we may come to a conclusion that we are only pals… or maybe you want ZERO to do with me… I’ll undestand anything at this point. I just needed a date to find out. I only went with this because I want a Christian soul mate who I might raise a real family with… but I see how it might affect your career.. and I understand the money stuff now… I think… but Sunshine? Your life is YOURS… not mine.. your world of success is yours… not mine and ill probably be reminding all of this fact and eternally… I can live with being your support.. your shoulder to lean on… and I can do it in pure secret if that’s what you need.. I said “You can’t offend me” when I figured it all out and maybe I’m misunderstood … I meant that no matter what you do in media and outside our life? You could never substitute any media image for who I know… So I was prepared for it all… You were great on SNL … Ever wonder why Hillary tried to steal yer mojo?
So anyway… I understand about most all now. I said I’ll sign any release form blindly … and I guess you really are a bit wealthy now?and have many “mouths depending on yer career to be fed?” I can totally understand that now.. but I’m not interested in that bit… but I’ll do whatever to get this on or over with. You can’t offend me so if some person says “Hi sign these and She will be here in a few minutes?” Fine … of course… I guess a only put my frustrations out there for all to see… may have destroyed my own career.. idk… but I’ll quit ALL once it might effect you… I’ll do what you want save for any communist insanity.. I’ll do whatever you need.. but what I want? I want my Sunshine back everyday.. I get very jealous seeing you text others and not me. When I saw “connecting” the other day? I mean I knew it wasn’t me… and I’m now used to the instant heartbreak.. but it still hurts me… I guess everybody is by now against us being together. .. but I can win them over.. so I’m here… You can call or come by… I was gonna skate to Malibu but might just get beer and kick it here.. I love you..